Have I lost all hope?  Will the next call be – Hi Mom, I’m ok; or May I speak to the mother of ..., we are so sorry to inform you that your daughter (or your son) was murdered (or found left to die somewhere and didn’t make it out alive).

Today, am I afraid of what might or might not happen to them?  Their precious lives I once bore as God’s wonderful gifts of life to me.  As their mother, stress and anguish is all I bear now.  It seems there isn’t one night that goes by that I don’t toss and turn over thoughts that she might be raped and left for dead or he might me shot and left to die alone.

Lives shattered by drugs and alcohol and other life-controlling problems have taken up my daily thoughts now to the point that has consumed me and the only out for me is to morn them, even though, in my heart I know they are not dead, but lost.  [I hope]